Another day in Uni... =3

There will always be negative thoughts around me, i wonder why?? hmmnnnn.... 

Ignore ignore... Woke up late this morning and didn't managed to finish up the presentation slide that should be done this morning it self. But it all went well, as the first group to present took an hour in presenting total hip replacement and our group got postponed till tomorrow. 

After lunch time, i have to stay in the MRC lab to finish up the left over slides and here comes the 'suprise'! 

Our class rep with BIOMECH papers in his hand... I was thinking, oh my god.... I'm gonna be dead this time! and yes! i failed my paper... 17/35... It may not seemed to be failed but the truth is i failed! even with one mark less, i still failed! The fact is I FAILED! I felt sad and disappointed in myself for not trying hard, either in studying or answering the questions. It just disappoint me! Pathology, not scoring so well, borderline... MSPT- not scoring well too... and Epidemiology? prepare to fail... 

Hmmnn... sometimes i really wonder, am i really suitable in studying this course? am i in the wrong path in the first place? Studying physiotherapy wasn't that easy after all... 

I wanted to give myself a chance but i disappoint my self everytime! I was thinking, this time, i will go to HKL and see if i can stand it, if not, then I will have to let go. 

Furthermore, having a position in the student representative council wasn't easy... It takes time and effort! 

Its a very stressful Monday! So long... :)

bad day

8th of February...

Rough day! Woke up at 6 something to fetch my friend to catch the train to airport. After that, went back n shower n head straight to uni. Since its early, i decided to get a soya drink from the market. As usual, thought of buying another packet for my bf. Indeed, i bought n send it over to his house right after the class ended. I guess this is what gf-bf do right? We would surely think of sharing things that we eat, things that we do? Hmmmnnnn... but sometimes i do wonder if i'm the one being so dumb? I always think of ways to impress or just to make my bf feel touched. But he seldom do the same...

anyway, something really serious happened today! I accidentally broke the bracelet that he gave me as a gift that carries the meaning of me accepting his confession. HE was really mad n he didn't even say a word to me till now. I keep apologising n tried to message or calling him but sadly, he doesn't give a damn about it.... i know that it is my fault for breaking such important gift but i really love the bracelet but its broken now... it feels like we will never get back together like how we used to be anymore.. i'm really lost, i don't know what to do anymore :-(

#lost #sad #afraidhewouldleave